Sunday, March 31, 2013

happy easter!


I hope you are having a wonderful Easter! I was blessed with a quiet morning today and lots of time for reflection. After this month talking about Spring Cleaning and all the things I am trying to do on the outside to make my life better it has made me realize there is so much more to it! Since my brother died last fall I have felt so off and I thought surely this month would make me get back on track. It has helped but hasn't healed. It has been a great test to the fact that we are body, soul and spirit and that just fixing one won't fix the rest. Don't get me wrong, I fully stand behind creating a peaceful home and a healthy body but I finally realized that as much as I want to make my life come back together I really can't. I spent Thursday night at a Maundy Thursday service and I think for the first time really understood the song Nothing But the Blood and the phrase "what can make me whole again, nothing but the blood of Jesus." Today is the perfect day for me to complete that spring cleaning and hopefully let go of some of the anger and resentment I have toward God for letting my brother die. It doesn't mean it is all better but I think this will be my first real step toward health.

3 comments:

  1. It is all about steps. I'm truly sorry for your loss and I pray you find the strength and courage to let go and move on.

    I had a grand time with family on Easter. It was also a day of realizations for me, that have still kept me thinking.

    Be blessed!

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    1. Thanks for the encouragement! I have had such a peaceful week so far so I definitely feel like I'm coming through :)

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